You wanna know something that I adore about my soul contract in this life time? (stick with me for a sec I promise I will back up and explain that). I absolutely adore that by helping others I often times get some amazing insight into my own journey. I “know” that is valid all the time. I “know” that it is an universal truth that by helping to heal others help us heal ourselves at all times, but there is so much power in being reminded of it in such a manner you must acknowledge it is relevant. There are times we are the healer and there are times that we are the healee. Most often we are a touch of both.
The above will make sense to some and others it will not. If it did not try this: it is a personal belief of mine that we choose some things in our life time. Not in a predestined kind of way; more in a way of before we come to this existence we have such a clear view on what we need to learn our greater truths that we are able to decide that certain things need to happen to us in order for us to be triggered to a deeper level of being. And by getting here and helping others in things that our strengths, we help ourselves get back to these truths we set out to discover as well. (soul contracts)
Part of my own contract(s) is to be a part of holding space for others as they step into their own truths. I adore it. I tire of it. I get excited by it. And sometimes I loathe it. LOL. Multilayered event folks. I think there are a lot of us that are in this position. We do it in our own way, with our own circles of people. No one more powerful than another.... some just more aware.
Here lately, it seems like so many are being called to step out of the thoughts they once had and move into a space where they really have to think about what they believe as truth. Many are being broken down to the very core of their star dust so that they can get rid of the crap that does not line up with their highest good. This is not an easy moment. This is a moment that most get to, take one look at, and run the hell away from.
If you find yourself at this moment it is really important for you to know that you are worthy, you are enough, you can do it, and there is a better way. You are a powerful and divine being … no matter the truths you have accepted... underneath all that programming is a being made of the stars that can and most definitely should accept the star dust that runs thru their veins.
It takes so much courage to be your authentic highest self. Not everyone will understand the way this journey looks. You must be willing to be stared at because you dance in the rain instead of running from its cleansing power. We have accepted programming that says joy has a time and a place. Be brave enough to smile just because. We have accepted programming that says if we are sad, we are wrong. Be strong enough to sit with your tears as they wash away the muck.
So many of us are dealing with the layers of stepping into our truths, be willing to share the love with others as you wish the world would do with you. Stand for your truths from a space of love – knowing that just as divine you are; so is the meat suit in front of you. They may not be aware of it yet --- but we are all flowing with the power of the stars. Are we acting like it?
If your news feed is anything like mine, you are seeing lots of things talking about the upcoming full moon. Even our local news station published an article on the cold moon that will be closing out our current decade. You might want to just blame the algorithms for the floodgate of those. However, if you would like to explore the thought a bit, I invite you to forge on and see where it might take you.
Let’s jump right in and dig a bit. Shall we?
The upcoming full moon is a Gemini moon. Gemini energy brings out a duality. The world of logic and the world of soul. When these two worlds are forced to collide, we naturally are sent to a space where we must examine the things that we value and stand upon. The fact that this is coming at the end of a decade carries a lot of energetic power that will require many of us to face things that we have been avoiding.
This moon also comes at a time where many planets are in movement. We will not dig so deep as to what all that means but if you find yourself doubting that plays any part in the energy that is engulfing us all at this moment- I encourage you to take a moment and think back to all those Mercury is in retro moments that we have recently all survived. At the base, planets moving means things within our star dust is affected. Just like when the moon is full inhibitions are affected. In this moment 3 planets are in motion filled with the energy from the full moon.
You feeling the muchness yet? Let’s dig deeper. Let’s use numbers.
This moon comes on December 12th at 12:12 am (ET). 12:12:12. As if a full moon and planets moving was not enough. 12:12 can be used in several ways to look at. Starting with the angels. 12:12 is a code that screams “you are on the verge of big changes” from the angels. In relation to ascension, 12:12 is a universal code that brings in aspects of Divine Christed light. (in this moment think of this like Christ’s most basic teaching “it's all about unconditional love”). In many teachings 12:12 is a sacred code that allows for activation of your crystalline Merkabic Field (think big energy bubble around us all). Top all of this off with the fact that 2019 is a “12” year (2+0+1+9).
Does anyone else feel like the Divine is screaming let the change come... we are here??!!
Let's dig back to 2012 to see how deep we can go.
7 years have passed since the Mayans pushed a lot of us to ponder what our thoughts on the universe were. I want you to think back over these 7 years and chances are you have been pushed to make shifts and transitions that are in one way or another interconnected. Even small shifts, have made these last years a breeding ground for growth and expansion (if you have allowed for it). Now we sit at the end of this decade facing a moon that calls us to examine everything we think that we know. I would say that’s a pretty big deal.
Bringing it full circle.
7 years ago, a gateway was opened that has held space for us, individually and as a whole, for growth and expansion. This moon signifies the ending of this gateway and the beginning of us putting that growth and expansion into action. It will require us to decide which path we want to take and where we want to allow our focus to fall upon. We are being called to remember our soul calling and take steps to bring that into our everyday life. The energy from this 12:12 gateway is making it to where running away from this is no longer an easy task. To me that is a pretty big deal.
If you are feeling these pulls I encourage you to really dig deep and allow for these activation to come full circle in your life. Take some time under the moon and listen to the calling of this powerful energy.
Stepping into your authentic self is hard but it comes with so many great things. By you stepping into your truth, you will encourage those around you to step into theirs. Little ripples make big waves.
Triggers, Triggers Everywhere
Anyone else feel like universe has its finger on the poke for reactions button of my soul and keeps on pressing it like an impatient toddler on an elevator? Totally not asking for a friend; asking because I do not like the thoughts of being alone in this kind of energy.
I can not help but think back thru this journey of mine. From the start of feeling like there was a bigger "something" calling me to step out and learn and grow. On to the moments where I questioned every part of my sanity (or lack there of it). All the way to the stepping out moment and all the worry that came with that moment about how people would look at me. To the now, where one would think the path would be "easy". However, I am slowly (and stubbornly) starting to accept that easy is a human construct to help keep hope alive when the light is not able to be seen at the end of the tunnel.
I giggle now at the naive thought that I have carried for so long..... That if i could just get to a certain space in my spiritual journey things would be easy and the tests and struggles would be over. I am not upset with myself for having those thoughts because during the dark times of the journey that was the only thought that kept me going down the rabbit holes. The thought that at some point a sweet relief would come and the word easy would enter back into my life. Relief did come but not in the ways my human mind expected it to.
So here we are today. I wanna scream to the universe "I have done the work. I have stepped out in faith. I have faced the dark night of my soul... more than once. What the fuck else do you want from me?" I wanna find the professor of the universe and see when the tests stop. When do the triggers stop? When does the universe accept that I am done with all the "hard" stuff and we all just have a life of bliss.
Today as I find myself wondering the logistics of putting the zoo up on the black market somewhere (serious statement that I am fully committed to not committing but love to entertain). A good many of my guides have high levels of smart-ass-ness and they love to use moments like this to show me the space in which I myself can grow and expand.
The time comes when we allow it to come. So many times we are looking to outside forces to let us know when we reach milestones. We do not listen to our inner or higher self near enough. We have accepted programming that tells us we could not possibly have enough knowledge to know these moments for ourselves. So we are constantly looking to the world to tell us that we have made those milestones.
I am in no way saying that outside validation does not hold a space of importance in our lives. Because lets be raw here--- we all need moments where someone tells us how awesome we are. It is so easy to forget those details when we are in the thick of learning moments. I am just pointing out that there is also power in the fact of us being able to see these milestones for ourselves.
When we get to this point we are able to see the triggers that are coming at us. It does not mean they are not there. It does not mean that we do not want to pick up a sword and chop someone's energetic head off. But it does mean that we that we see the moment for what it is; while seeing ourselves for who/where we are. We may want to get pissed off and scream profanities to the wind but we recognize that is coming from a place of hurt within ourselves. So instead we take a deep breath. Label things for what they are. Refuse to judge ourselves because of these epiphanies. Send healing to the dark places within our souls that are calling out for warmth and love. And move forward knowing the rest is out of our ability to do anything about.
At the end of these moments I personally like to reward myself with a gold star, pint of ice cream, glass of wine... or all three. :)
You see the triggers are always gonna be there. The path honestly never gets "easy". But we some how learn to change the narrative to one of which we know we can chop of heads if the time calls for it... but it is not a necessary way of being. We see the badass we have transitioned into and we learn to ebb and flow with the waves that are coming at us instead of trying to waste energy fighting against our own demons.
If you find yourself being triggered...... I really encourage you to scream it out. But make the choice to follow that moment with one that sits with what is happening to you and see where you can heal from the inside out.
Energies are bumpy. Hang in there. Yall got this.
Little ripples make big waves. It matters. You matter.
F*ck It Friday Vlog #2
F*ck It Friday Intro Vlog
Let's talk Yoni y'all
By: Tavin Whisler
Disclaimer: Yoni is a Sanskrit word referring to the female genitalia. Many explain its meaning to be "sacred space". Move forward at your discretion.
The practice of using polished stone eggs for both the spiritual and physical enhancement of the vagina and its amazing abilities is not a new one. For thousands of years, this practice has been used by many who share a belief that the health of a women's sacred space is directly linked to the power in her life-force (feel free to interchange with chi). In short; the healthier and happier the vagina was---the healthier and happier the woman was.
In Western culture we are quick to hide so many things about sexuality out of guilt, shame, and other negative programmings. My personal belief is this disconnects many of us all (not just females) from being able to tap into some of the purest forms of "magic" .... yes I'm talking about sex. (Its ok if you just giggled or felt your soul go hmmmm..."I dont know about this"). Just take a deep breath and allow yourself some space. If you are still reading this I am assuming that there is at least a part of you that is curious to see how this rabbit hole ends. :) So let's jump in and see.
Let's start with the basics.... physically the same concept as benwa balls are applied. If that is a foreign rabbit hole to you --my suggestion is for you to fall down that rabbit hole then come back. :)
Back? Good.. I knew you couldn't stay away too long.
What are some of the benefits of this practice?
Activate your sensuality
Increase natural lubrication
Develop an intimate and deeper relationship yourself and your body
Increase sensitivity during intercourse
Enhance orgasmic moments
Some use yoni eggs to assist in the process of after birth recovery
Gain control over the vaginal muscles
Enhance your Tantra, Qigong, and yoga practice
Now let's go a little deeper and talk about how the gemstones themselves can allow for a level of spiritual and energetic healing to take place. Throughout ones life there are many moments that can bring a level of trauma .. self inflicted and other wise. Over time we start to carry these traumas in our very life force and they become a part of us. The practice of using certain stones can help you heal thru these moments and release that trauma in such a way that can light a fire within your own sacred space. For each person this journey looks different. But for all there is power in exploring what it means to you as an individual.
Rose Quartz :
The rose quartz meaning is all about unconditional love; Both for self and others. It facilitates love entering your life through it’s ability to bring your consciousness to a higher vibration level. With the power to help you to forgive, understand and guide you to see moments from a different perspective, rose quartz healing properties can bring a lot into your life. The rose quartz properties provide gentle energy that guides you in recognizing your own need for compassion and self-love. This can trigger a journey that allows you to see that you deserve forgiveness and understanding from yourself. It can assist in washing out toxic energies and emotions that you have trapped inside of you. When healing with rose quartz yoni one can find themselves on an adventure full of self-discoveries, newly sparked self-love and acceptance and with the power to release energies that no longer serve you.
Sunstone clears and energizes all the chakras. Sunstone heightens intuition and allows the real self to shine through in a healthy way. Working with sunstone dissipates fearfulness, alleviates stress and increases vitality. The strong energies encourages independence and originality. It activates energies that can helpful to those who have difficulty saying “No” to others. Sunstone facilitates self-empowerment and independence and increases self worth and confidence. Sunstone is a great stone to step into ones true and authentic self with. When working with the sunstone yoni be ready to allow yourself to journey down the path of truly accepting yourself --in all of your magical goodness.
Vesuvianite cleanses and energizes ones aura and helps you keep in contact with your spiritual nature even when earthly matters demand attention. (I like to think of this like the "pause button rock".) Vesuvianite is useful for combating negative thoughts and bringing enthusiasm back into your life. Working with the energies from this stone will help you in releasing unconscious fears and limiting beliefs. This allows for one to fully and openly accept the authentic self that lies within each of us. It will assist you on your journey to activating assertiveness for the sake of self. Vesuvianite helps align your body, mind, and spirit. When working with the vesuvianite yoni be prepared to link to your higher self and create a sacred space of inner security.
So you see, the practice of using the Yoni egg carries healing in the physical and spiritual sense. For many the trouble comes in being willing to open yourself up to the possibilities of a healthy life force that is fueled from the inside out.
Many blessing on your journey and be on the lookout for our upcoming videos and information on Yoni eggs and steam Lotus Petals has to offer.
Do you feel the lion roaring?
I adore the person who comes to me looking for spiritual answers with an open heart but starts the conversation with "but does it really work?" I can not help but giggle in this moment. Their energy says they are looking for something that their soul is already sending search parties for but their mind is not in a space to fully accept they are worthy of the magic calling to them. I giggle not out of judgement for them; rather I giggle because I know they are so close to feeling something amazing and most have no idea. I giggle because Spirit is already showing them that "it" works-- and I am merely a bridge builder to show them just how much "it" is working and what that means for them.
What in this world does that long winded intro have to do with this magical day of 8/8/2018? It has been labeled The 8-8 Lions Gate. 8 .... the number of balance. The number Spirit uses to show us what needs to be cleared out and what needs to brought into this life to come full circle on our journey in this magical meat suit of ours. And it happens in the month of the mighty lion. (so mighty I really wanted to capitalize the L in lion there lol). So lets move thru this simply, covering all the layers at a basic level, and together.
Let's start there... numbers.... Spirit is telling us already pay attention. 88/11 (add 2+0+1+8). Oftentimes Spirit uses numbers to communicate with us. I personally believe it is because numbers are harder for this meat suit to mix up during the "interpreting" process. See a dove it could mean love, marriage, or something else all-together. See an 8-- its an 8. Then you add that magical 11 to it. We call this day 8-8 Lion's gate. Spirit calls it powerful in the realm of bringing magically balance. How do we know that? By the numbers.
Do you feel the power in the air today? Maybe it comes in the form of a bit more "ummpf" in your step. Maybe your hair (mane) is sitting just right. Maybe you feel like everyone else has the power and you want yours back. It can be either side of the power feels-- you notice the power that you feel in the air around you. Pay attention to what steps you may need to make to gain control of that power back. Bring that roar back to your center and feel your strength. Not just for today but use the energies of today and remember what it feels like. Bring that balance of power back into your life.
Then we go into the fact that this is the Lions month. Kings and Queens are us Leos. At least in our own heads. :) We need to be heard. Ignoring us is not something any Leo takes lightly. (Can ya tell I'm a Leo?) But you know something most Leos won't tell ya? That underneath all that hair tossing and strutting is a good many insecurities. A need for validations and gold stars. Are you feeling that too? Cause this is the time for any creepy thoughts of shortcomings to come to the surface.
So what do you do when that hits? You go back to the numbers. You remember that Spirit told us there is power all around us. You remember the balance between arrogance and divine power. And you embrace all that you are. Knowing you are worthy and powerful.
Oh and did we mention that all the planets are still a bit off centered as well? Not in their typical positions around the sun on this mighty day of 8-8. We can get deep here but lets stay at the surface. Just like the moon effects the tides of the oceans-- the alignment of the planets effect our lives. Some are more attuned to this than others but none is left unaffected. We, just like the planets, are being pushed outside our "normal orbit" to take a look at things we may not be able to see otherwise.
Take a look at what is coming up and out during this time for you. Do not judge yourself or others for it. Just pay attention. Where can you bring in more balance? What is Spirit saying to you?
So you tell me ... do you feel the lions roaring? We can make a choice to focus on how much all this "out of orbit" stuff is making our lives hard and blah blah blah. Or we can see the power we have in it all and see it as a gift from Spirit. We can know that this is not a punishment; rather a doorway (gate) that if we listen deep within, Spirit is telling us all we need to gather to use as a key. Gather these things from the stardust within our soul and we can open this gate. Be prepared for a powerful and magical journey once you open it. And know there is nothing you can not handle.
This will mean change for a good many of us. And change is scary at times. But that moment of clarity after the change happens and you embrace all that it means for you-- that moment is powerful. You are powerful. And you are worthy of all that means. In seeing yourself as worthy never forget that others are just as worthy. Their gate may lead to a different place than yours but it is no less valid. As we are also reminded of how interconnected we are thru the number 8. Spirals and circles surround us all and are never ending and sometimes overlapping.
Dance your spiral dances of stardust power you mighty Lions you!!!!!!
So why Tea?
Growing up, my mom would always have a glass of tea with her. She would brew it in the sun in the summer and on the stove in the winter. I never liked it. It wasn’t until I was 9 and had become ill that I had my first cup of hot tea…more specially, a hot toddy. For those unfamiliar, a hot toddy is hot tea with lemon, honey and a shot whiskey. Some may argue it was the whiskey that got me “hooked”, but I know it was tea. Growing up in England was probably also a factor. After that first hot toddy I would, and still do, turn to a nice cup of tea to soothe and comfort me.
Although I’ve been a tea drinker for a very long time, I’ve only recently fully understood the powerful and magical healing properties of tea! Several years ago a former professor of mine opened my eyes to GMO’s and all the other unnatural things that are in and done to our food. Which put me on the path for a healthier and more conscientious life style consuming and using natural ingredients and remedies. I learned quickly how plants and herbs have beneficial healing properties, as well as long lasting preventive properties. I started researching and experimenting with using herbs in my food and making my own herbal tea blends for my personal aliments and prevention purposes.
My journey in discovering the power of tea and herbs has been magical! I love creating new blends to help ease and bring happiness! Through tea blending, I feel a connection with Gaia and with those I create the blend for. Sipping on a special cup of tea can transport you into another realm where your mind is relaxed and your soul is singing. I lose myself in at least 2 cups of tea a day and I can’t wait for you to join me!
Hey, I'm Tavin
Does anyone else struggle with the silly box that says "about you"?? I know I always sit there and stare for a good while before I really get to filling out all that empty space. The who has always been the hardest for me.
I admit there have been times in this life that I have thought I had the who all figured out. But more times than not shortly after that, a moment occurs that makes me totally reevaluate everything I had just gotten figured out. LOL. How can we be expected to put together a series of letters, spaces, and punctuation in a manner which another is expected to correctly interpret who we are? The who for me has been a series of ironies that I am not even sure I understand on most days; yet I fully accept that I am exactly who I am meant to be in this very moment. See the who is hard man.....
Lets start basic and see what rabbit hole that takes us down shall we? I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a veteran, college graduate, a sister, space-holder, bridge, spiritual student and teacher. I am by most accounts a rebel yet I hate the butterflies that come with confrontation. I am a source of inspiration for some and others find me a pretty sore subject of conversation. I am at peace under the moonlight listening to the ocean.. yet that hot sand during the day annoys the crap out of me. My husband tells me on an almost daily basis “you’re crazy!” but he always follows it with “but I love you.” I absolutely adore the space he occupies but it would be far from the truth to say I have enough left at the end of the day to show him that on a constant basis. I often question the universe’s wisdom in allowing for children to be under my care; yet I seem to collect them everywhere I go. I have five children walking this earth and lovingly refer to them as the zoo. Each one of them magical and annoying in their own special way... sometimes both in the same moment. I adopted some, birthed some, and have buried one...even though growing up I swore I would have none. I believe in realistic parenting and allowing for the zoo to be human. However, (read in the tone “however comma”) on most days I quietly curse my support of said parenting due to them “bucking the man” --which in most cases I am the man.
I believe fully in the power of transparency and am well aware of how uncomfortable this can make some. It has crossed my mind many times that people who are not ready to see life from different angles often do not spend a lot of time around me (I am still working on not taking this personal.) I think there is a very divine power when you combine the “good” and the “bad” and still see the world from a bright point of view. I believe that by helping others see the transparency of me working thru these moments in my own life it can help them know they are not alone in their “crazy.” I like to think of myself as a bridge where crazy and normal can meet and have a nice dinner together. A place where people come to work thru things that are a little outside society’s “normal standards.” I help them see, accept, heal from, and love their own crazy parts so that their own “who” becomes easier to understand. We all have our own answer for the who and I fully support the idea that if we are honest in the sharing of that we can all see there are somethings we are not as alone as we think we are in.
During the process of putting my own "who" into words the power of the Lotus came to me. There is such power and beauty in it; yet if you look at where it came from, mud and grim is a necessary part of its journey. For me Lotus Petals is about creating a space where people can come to find the tools, answers, guidance, and support required to be the best "who" they can be. I want to be a part of that journey. That is part of my soul contract in this lifetime... to help others with the words of "the who" so that as a collective we can change the world around us.
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